i love scandals!

Friday, January 20, 2006

it not that i cant, its just that i dont wanna.

cause i love you alittle too much.

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:32:00 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

you make me sick.

zenna boxed the green apple at 2:18:00 PM

Sunday, October 30, 2005

dear mum,

1) so what if im lesbian?

2) i'll still be me.

3) i'll still call you 'mum'.

4) i'll still love you the same.

5) i'll still go shopping with you.

6) i'll still go down to dad's place to help out anytime you need me to.

7) i'll still tend grandma's shop for you on saturdays.

there're so many other things i'll still do for you - it doesnt make me any different.

the only difference it'll make if i told you, would be that i would be so much happier if u knew.

i dont wish to hide anything from you. but what to do lar.

u tell me ure open minded and all, yar, wth.

seriously, dont you want me to be happy?

life is short and unpredictable such that it's not worth all the arguments and unhappiness each time we do so.

i just wanna do the things i wanna do and not live in regret.

cant u try to understand?

and seriously, if u keep insisting " i know okay, i know." then since u already know, then why ask? cannot take it, then dont ask!

At the end of the day, i really hope that in time to come, i'll be able to answer: "yar, so wat?"

Still your daugther - even if im lesbian,

Zenna.

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:01:00 PM

Friday, October 28, 2005

its always nice to know that ure being missed! - esp by people who you least expect!

=)

i feel appreciated and luRRRVed!

its doesnt make me feel so lousy about myself!!!

its a nice feeling!

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:14:00 AM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

im really getting a little too paranoid. argh! the feeling really sucks!

im hoping that im being paranoid and not guessing it right. - again

but to begin with, i shouldnt even be feeling this way!

just dont keep anything from me okay?

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:20:00 AM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

sometimes there are so many things i wanna blog about.

things i wanna complain and make a big fuss abt it.

and when im at this page about 'embark' on my whole list of complains, i stop seeing a need to do so.

its fustrating. cus i wanna let it all out, but at then same time, i see no point. its so annoying.

its not tt if i complain, no one is gonna read this and then my entry would be wasted.

its more of like, complain for wat? no one's gonna understand, and when i complain, i keep complaining about the same issue, of different scenarios over and over again.

even i get bored, sick and tired of myself.

i know some of u feel that im being silly for the certain things im doing. i know u guys mean the best for me. its not that i dont wanna listen to guys, but i know myself - i'll listen and try. but i know that the more i keep myself from doing things i wanna do, the more i'll want to do it and i'll get even more fustated with myself.

i just need the day to come to 'HIT ME' so that i finally 'see the light'. i know that day will come cause ive been there.

since certain things have the capability of happening once and again. so im sure it'll happen again. just a matter of how long its gonna take for that day to come.

=)

zenna boxed the green apple at 2:00:00 PM

Friday, September 02, 2005

=)

hello everybody! - haha to those who will ACTUALLY be reading this.

after 9 months and i suddenly have the mood to blog.

so many things happened in these 9 months and recent events have certainly made a huge impact in my life.

mutal understanding is damn important. saves time and effort trying hard to explain certain things.

certain pple dont deserve the effort you put in to make them understand. so why bother?

"let them think what they want to think" - as my special friend says. =)

i mean, at the end of the day, as long as the important pple in my life know whats going on, thats what really matters. and u dont need many pple like that. just a couple will do, and its not that im pathetic. so many for what ?

you all know who u are.

if u people were true friends, you would have came up to me and have your "queries" "answered". you dont bitch and then act as though nothing happened. you shld go figure out the other side of the story first.

if theres anything ure not happy about me, just tell me. it'll show that ure expressing concern for me and like "its for my own good"kind of shit. that is, - if u were true friend.

for heaven's sake! ALL OF U WERE BITCHING ABOUT ME. wth. to think u all were MY friends to begin with.

hypocrisy. tsk.

anyway, i feel better after letting everything out. u guys can carry on with ur hypocrisy over this issue. just dont do it again under any circumstances if u were a true friend.

i'll be generous enough to forgive you this time. but i'll never forget.

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:33:00 AM